Stumbling Upon The Inside-Out Understanding

On the morning of my birthday in 2016, I awoke with a feeling of frustration and dissatisfaction. Although I was not clear why I was feeling how I was feeling, something inside me told me it was time to move on from the job I had been doing for years. It was a great job with a solid company and I loved the people I worked with, yet I knew I had to make space for something new.

After several months of internal arguing in my head over what to do, I finally decided to quit my corporate job and step into the unknown. I had done a little bit of consulting work in the past and thought that would be a natural direction for me. I also knew I wanted to help other people and multiple organizations in a way that made use of my strengths. I wanted to do something different and interesting.

In a moment of quiet meditation, I saw myself working one-on-one with people talking about life and business and also talking in front of groups. I suddenly got the inspiration to explore coaching as an opportunity to grow and do something fun that could come with personal and professional benefits for myself and others.

I didn't necessarily know what to make of the vision I had in that quiet moment, yet I knew I had to explore what coaching was all about. I investigated what the coaching profession was and looked into coaching training programs. After telling a friend at work about my newfound interest in coaching, he recommended I speak with his coach. My friend's coach graciously shared her own transition from working in media and into the profession of life coaching.

I enrolled in the same coaching training program she took, which happened to start right around the time I would be terminating my employment. The timing couldn't be better.

Three months after starting training, I decided to look around for what other professional coaches and trainers and found Michael Neill and his book Supercoach. In this book he quotes Serge Kahili King, and credits him as one of his early mentors. I had read many of Serge Kahili King's books an even did online training on Huna from him, which I loved. This connection between Michael and Serge really sparked my interest on what Michael's work was all about.

Two or three weeks after my exploration of one of Michael's books I enquired on his six-month training program, Supercoach Academy. I first tried his online home study course and found myself consuming all the content in a full day or two. That was enough for me to get the sense that his full immersive training program was what I wanted to do, even though I was still enrolled and training on the other program. 

My first week of intensive training at SCA was my immersive introduction into the Three Principles. At first, it all sounded familiar and my mind was comparing and contrasting with all I had read and learned before from my musings into spirituality, psychology and personal development. The busy mind I came with started to slow down as the week progressed - allowing the message Michael was sharing to sink in. 

Throughout the training we would get together in small groups to share our understanding of what Michael was presenting. As I participated in some of these exchanges I noticed tension in my shoulders building up whenever I would hear an opinion that conflicted with mine - a feeling all-too familiar to me. Whenever I would be in a work meeting where I felt my opinions weren't being validated this tension would show up.

My first insight came around the middle of the first week's intensive. Once again, we were asked to break into groups to discuss. As the tense feeling in my shoulders showed up again, the new knowing that I was feeling my thinking popped up. In that very instant, I felt as if a light had been turned on above my head and I realized what was so obvious, yet I did not know where it came from - I was feeling tension from the thought of "I had to be right!" Immediately the tension in my shoulders was gone and a feeling of peace and love started to permeate me. I was able to get past my limited thinking and was free to enjoy the conversation and the people with a clear mind, full of empty space to listen. 

This powerful insight had me floating for the rest of the intensive. The profound simplicity of the Three Principles had impacted me in a huge way. What started as an interesting intellectual exploration had become an experience of the inside-out nature of thought creating of my experience. In the past, I would have attributed my discomfort to the conflicting points of view coming from others. Now I knew what I had experienced in the past as a tense feeling was caused by my thoughts of conflict coming from my ego wanting to be "right."

I had my first taste of wisdom. The insight I realized was so simple, yet profound. It's even funny to look back and see that I had carrying around a thought that made me experience conflict where none truly existed.

Fernando Perez